I've been listening to my Circle + Bloom faithfully since I bought it and last night while lying in bed, doing my meditation like a good girl, something on the recording really struck me. In a nutshell it said- trust your body to do what it needs to do and forgive your body for anything that has happened in the past. Wow. This hit me- hard. I thought to myself, I am pretty pissed off at my reproductive system. I'm mad at my fallopian tube for not passing on the egg like it was supposed to, I'm mad at my uterus for not welcoming a fertilized egg with open arms, and I'm mad that my body isn't doing what it is naturally supposed to do. So, I had a little talk with my lady parts and I forgave them. It felt pretty darn good.
Now, since I'm trying really hard to be on the "positive frame of mind" path, I want to share a Cherokee Legend that my fantastic husband told me about yesterday. I found it online today and it helped me realize that while going through infertility and all the tests, shots, doctor's appointments, and feeling like an all around failure and science experiment- I have forgotten to feed my good wolf...
An old Cherokee is teaching his grandson about life. "A fight is going on inside me," he said to the boy.
"It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves. One is evil - he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego." He continued, "The other is good - he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith. The same fight is going on inside you - and inside every other person, too."
The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, "Which wolf will win?"
The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."