Thursday, June 28, 2012

I'm getting out of the house!

Steve and I haven't been out in.... I'm not sure how long.  I'm not going to lie, I've been going stir crazy and I'm starved for adult conversation that doesn't include bottles, poop, or bedtime (in a major way).

So this Saturday we are forcing ourselves away from Emily for a few hours and we're going to a concert! Ken.ny Che.sney and McG.raw to be exact.  I'm not even a country fan and I'm excited to see these two. 

And if that's not awesome enough, we're going to a Pi.rates game on Tuesday night too!

You guys, I'm going to be wearing something other than sweatpants for 2 nights in a week, this is big stuff.

Monday, June 25, 2012

8 months

Oh Emily, I feel like you have grown up so much in this past month!

What you've been up to:
- giving mom and dad hugs
- saying mama and 'talking' more- we think you say up and baba
- clapping
- playing 'so big'
- you have started standing with help but you still don't want to crawl or scoot
- when I get you out of your crib and give you a hug you pat my back (I love this!)

You love:
- eating and there have been a few times you have grabbed food right off our plates
- your little piano; you always dance when you play with it
- watching the weather on the news, when you hear the music intro you stop whatever you're doing and turn to the TV, it's adorable!
- mirrors and kissing the baby in the mirror
- going on walks; you zone out and are so calm when you're outside
- bath time; it's by far your favorite time of the day
- knocking down blocks
- rattles and rainmakers

You are such a funny girl and you always have daddy and I laughing.  We love you so much sweets!

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

catching up

Sorry for the absence.  I start to write, quit, forget about it and then never get back to it (I started this post on Saturday....).  Mostly because I am spending time with Emily but also because I am tired.  It's the one pregnancy symptom I have in abundance.

We are trying to transition Emily to two naps per day instead of three.  This is hard!  If anyone has any ideas to make it easier let me know.  The reason I'm doing this is because she has been napping great- usually an hour in the morning, an hour and a half in the afternoon and then 45 minutes in the late afternoon.  But her nighttime sleep.....terrible.  She goes to bed fine at 7:00 but she wakes up crying at 11:30, 2:30 and at 5:30 she wants to be up for the day. Thankfully, Steve takes most of the work at night but we are both exhausted. As soon as we pick her up she stops crying, when we put her down she cries again.  Last night we let her cry it out.  She woke up at 11:30, cried for a few minutes, I went in a shushed her but didn't pick her up, she cried a little more and then just laid awake/playing for an hour and a half (!!) then went back to sleep until 5:30 and wanted to be up for the day.  This girl is going to kill us with lack of sleep. Oh and I love Merlin's magic sleep suit but she is going to grow out of it soon and she will not sleep without it now.  Great.

In the pregnancy department, I haven't had many symptoms except being tired and a small amount of nausea.  I'm 9w3d today and I had an OB appointment on Monday.  The Dr found the heart beat with a doppler and that brought so much relief! 

Emily has done some really great stuff in the past couple of weeks.  Saying mama, clapping, and playing "so big". She still has no interest is scooting or crawling, she hates being on her knees.  Yesterday she worked on standing during PT and she loves it now!  Her last helmet appointment went really well and she will have another head scan in a month and might graduate from her helmet early!

So big!


standing and so proud of herself!

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Thank you friends

via Etsy

Posting about this pregnancy was a hard decision for me to make.  I didn't want to hurt any of my blog friends who are still waiting for their babies.  At the same time, this community has been here for us through so much and I wanted to share our news with you.

All of your comments and emails were so sweet. I heard from some new readers and many of my 'old friends'.  But the comments that got me were the ones from my friends who are still waiting.  I pray for you ladies all the time; you deserve to be mothers. 

Thank you for taking the time to comment when our news might have been hard to read.

I appreciate it, I really do.

Friday, June 8, 2012

I have some news...

May 20th I got this....

I wasn't expecting it, I was stunned, scared and excited all at the same time.  I know two lines don't come easy. 

In April my cycle was 33 days long so when I got to day 34 in May I said to Steve, "I should probably take a test just in case."  He was making breakfast and said, "yeah, might as well". I think both of us were just assuming it would be negative and my cycles were messed up. So into the bathroom I went, did my business, and before I could even wash my hands I looked down and saw two lines.  I screamed, "Steve, it's positive!".  We stood in the bathroom staring at each other in happy disbelief.

My heart was pounding and the thoughts in my head were smashing into each other... is this really happening? what if it's another ectopic? how far apart in age will they be? is this really happening??

But of course, this positive test didn't mean easy sailing.  Since I'm new here, I called a few obgyn's in the area and found one that would get me in that week.  The Dr. I saw was amazing.  He talked to me about my history, ordered blood work right away and set up an ultrasound for the next week.  At this point we calculated I was about 5 weeks pregnant.  My first beta was 9804, which was good news.  Another Dr. in the group looked at my blood work and chart the next day and decided with my history I should go for an ultrasound that day.  The ultrasound showed a gestational sac but no yolk sac.  I was crushed.  I cried.  All of the feelings of infertility resurfaced and smacked me right in the face.

Thankfully, I got to go home to my sweet baby girl and that took away the sting.  We are beyond lucky to have her and I told myself if another baby wasn't in our future then that was ok with me.  I'm grateful to have one healthy baby when so many women don't.

The next day I had a second beta drawn and it was 17734, also good news. 

They scheduled me for another ultrasound on May 29th. I was so scared.  I sat in the car before my appointment and said, "either way, good or bad, you have Emily".  I took a few deep breaths and walked into the office.  Paperwork, undressing, stirrups and then I saw this...

the most beautiful sight

Our baby, measuring 5w6d with a heart rate of 106. Our estimated due date is January 21, 2013.

It's still early but we are beyond happy and praying for the best.

*  We aren't ready for any fac.ebook announcements yet, so if you are my friend on fb please don't post anything

** If you know of any bloggers with babies close in age please pass their URL on to me, I'd love to read up on what works for them

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Road Trip

We just got home from Illinois, visiting family, celebrating my little brother's birthday, it was a great weekend (except for the driving).

I'm not going to lie, the drive was hard.  For some reason, Emily didn't want to sleep so she got over tired and cried a lot. By the last hour of our 10 plus hour trip home Steve and I were singing, making faces, dancing in our seats to keep Emily from having a severe melt down.  Thank God for the CD 'Bouncy Beats for Little Feet'.  Another thing that saved us was a lot of stopping.  We would get out a big blanket, let Emily roll around, feed her outside and then we'd get back on the road.  It kept all of us sane.

But the trip was definitely worth it!  I miss my family so much and it was wonderful to see everyone.

Grandpa & Great Grandpa

baby hugs

Daddy and Grandpa

Aunt Niki

Uncle Randl

Aunt Kelsey

Aunt Julie

sleepy babies
Oh and Emily started this on the trip, I'm counting it as her first word.

Friday, June 1, 2012

Classy and Fabulous

I am so glad to be a part of this virtual shower for sweet E at ManyManyMoons.

I was beyond happy when I read your post about being selected as adoptive parents.  And I had tears in my eyes when I saw the picture of you holding your precious baby girl.  Reading your blog over the past few months, I could just tell you would be a wonderful mother and I am thrilled that you are finally getting your opportunity!

I wish you and your new family of three all the best and I can't wait to see and hear all about precious baby A.

"The bond that links your true family is not one of blood, but of respect and joy in each other's life."
-Richard Bach

Congratulations E!