Monday, January 3, 2011

Emotional Ups & Downs

I am a 'type A' kind of person- that is no secret.  I'm having a really hard time waiting for this process to start and I don't like that there isn't much I can do to make sure it works. Sure, I've read all kinds of websites that tell you to do yoga, get acupuncture, eat only organic foods and full fat dairy...but how do I know any of that will help (and where do I find the extra money to pay for it all)? I was sitting on the couch last night, trying to relax before starting the work week, and my mind was engulfed by all of the what-ifs.  I told Steve I felt anxious and nervous and he said, don't worry, everything will be ok.  There are numerous times I have been jealous of how relaxed and easy going Steve is and this is definitely one of those times.  How does he do that?  How does he stay so positive and relaxed when I feel like a crazy person?

Remember going to the amusement park for the first time and being so excited to ride the big roller coasters? 

You were finally tall enough and felt like a grown up. You waited so long in those snaking lines and the closer you got to the front the more nervous you became. Well, I am finally tall enough and grown up and right now I am in that long, snaking line towards my emotional roller coaster. 

My injections start Wednesday....I feel nervous, excited, fearful, apprehensive, eager....the list goes on and on.


  1. Remember when you finally got off that ride… the thrill and excitement made it all worthwhile, and those long lines didn’t seem quite so bad. When we get our little squirt and look back, our ‘line’ won’t seem nearly as long as it does now. I love you!

  2. Steve has always been relaxed like that. It's just the way he's wired. Anxiety will do nothing but hinder this process. Good Luck and relax!!!!


  3. Good luck!!! Keep your eye on the prize.... a little baby :)


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