Take yesterday for example, I was having a totally shit day with both kids screaming, Gavin refusing to eat, and Emily crying about basically everything in her life.....and I thought to myself, I can't handle this. And if I'm totally honest, most days I feel like a below average mom because my kids are crying/fighting/not listening/not eating/not napping/not potty training/younameit and I'm losing my temper with them and I'm yelling (which helps nothing) and sending my husband texts that say, "you should probably come home before I lose it".
But during these crazy days, there is usually a moment with Emily or Gavin or both where I stop and think- "well, you must be doing something right because that was awesome".
Yesterday, that moment happened when Emily and I were lying on her bed and she was pretending to read to me. No book in sight, just flipping pages of an imaginary book and when she got to the 'end' of the book- she spelled the word 'please'. I looked at her in shock and said, "did you just spell please??" She just smiled. I grabbed my phone and asked her to spell it again and she did!
We read Penguin Says Please to her every night and the last page has the word please in capital letters and she always points to the letters and then says- "please has 2 E's!". She basically knows the book by heart but how in the heck does she know how to spell?? Proud mom moment for sure, even if I have no idea how it happened.
So in between bribing Gavin to eat 2 bites of mac and cheese with Baby Einstein (on the living room floor)...
and Emily crying because her sock was on wrong...
there was a bright spot that let me know I'm doing ok at this mom thing.
(and yes, we were in our pajamas all day)