My Circle + Bloom Meditation last night was a good one so I want to share it in case it might help any of my infertile friends out there.
Here is what my list looked like...
* I'm not going to get pregnant this cycle.
* I'm never going to be a mom.
* Why can't I get pregnant?
* It's my fault we can't have a baby.
* Am I being punished?
I know some of these sound so dramatic...and they are- but sometimes, at my worst, that's how it feels inside my head. And if you've never been through infertility then you have no idea how terrible it feels.
So after writing all of my negative thoughts on the chalkboard the narrator tells me I can either keep them there or erase them and let them go. I erased...and it felt good. It might sound silly but a huge weight was lifted and I felt much less negative and stressed about the unknown.
Go write on your chalkboards....and then erase!
P.S. I still haven't decided if I'm going to POAS or wait for my beta. I'd love to know if any of you did and how long you waited? And were you glad you did? I don't want to get my hopes up with a false positive or go into depression over a false negative. What to do??