10 months!

Dear Emily (aka: Ems, Badger, Badgey, Lil' Tiny),

When did you get so big?

Your dad and I are always asking each other, "What happened to our little baby?"  I think we will do this for the rest of our lives, it must be a parent thing.

You are growing so fast physically and mentally.  You are standing up all the time, cruising on the furniture, crawling at the speed of light, and climbing over anything in your way!  We got you your first pair of walking shoes on Saturday and you don't like them very much right now, but I know you'll get used to them soon.

You can say mama, up, baba and zsa zsa (dada).  You play hide and seek behind furniture or corners and then poke your little head out, it's the cutest thing and you giggle every time! 

You give kisses and hugs when we ask for them and you have started waving bye-bye.  You are very interested in our mouths and teeth (daddy thinks you're going to be a dentist).   You love lifting my shirt to see my belly and attempting to blow raspberries on it. You can find your ball, your stuffed seal, and Grandma Bonnie's teddy bear if we ask you where they are. 

You are still quiet around other babies and in group settings.  We had a couple of play dates at our house this month and you didn't like the other kids playing with your toys.  You love music class but you like to sit back and observe before you start interacting with anyone right away. You dance anytime you hear music and grin from ear to ear. You still like being outside, going for walks, and swinging.

Sometimes Daddy holds you upside down or swings you around in his arms and you squeal and giggle. 

You are taking 4- 5 or 6 oz bottles a day and you are a pretty picky eater (just like mommy was).  Your favorite things to eat are raspberries, strawberries, bananas, avocado, cheerios, puffs, yogurt, cheese, waffles and graham crackers.  You aren't a big fan of veggies and meat right now but we are working on it! You are starting to get the hang of your sippy cup and you love drinking water.

You are taking two naps a day usually an hour and a half each and you are sleeping at night from 7:00pm -6:30am. 

It seems like you are getting a new tooth every time I turn around!  You have 2 top teeth (with a couple of bumps showing new teeth coming) and 5 bottom teeth.  Your amber teething necklace has helped a ton with fussiness from teething pain.  You don't seem bothered by new teeth as much anymore (thank God!).

We are all very excited to have some visitors this month!  Aunt Niki, Uncle Alec and Grandpa are all coming to see us in a couple of weeks are we can't wait!!

Sweet girl, you make mommy and daddy so happy and proud every day.  You are the best thing that has every happened to us and we love you more than you will ever know!

Love,
Mama

I'll be ok

In my last post I talked about having a hard time lately. I'm going to explain, but first I want to say that our families are doing so much to help and I appreciate it very much.  My last post and this post don't mean I need more help around here (I get tons of help), it's just how I'm feeling emotionally and I will snap out of it.  I also appreciate all the comments, texts, emails and the skype chat with a few blogger friends- you girls saved my sanity that day, thank you for letting me know I'm not alone.

I've been struggling for a couple of months, feeling depressed, sad, not myself.  I know most of it is pregnancy hormones- but I feel lonely in this new town and I'm not having much luck finding friends or things to do with Emily.  The town we live in is small and pretty remote.  So there aren't any moms groups close by, no story time for babies at the library, nothing that you would normally do as a stay at home mom.  To do these things we have to drive 30-45 minutes.  Not a big deal right?  Well it wouldn't be an issue if Emily didn't hate the car so much.  She cries the whole time- there and back.  Listening to my baby cry for 90 minutes to get out of the house for a half hour story time is not exactly a great time.

I miss my family and my friends.  I miss being social.  I'm not used to being alone with a baby for 9+ hours a day with no one to talk to.  I never imagined staying home with Emily would be this hard.  I love her to death but I am struggling and that makes me feel like crap.  I know tons of moms would jump at the chance to stay home with their kids and here I am feeling like this.  Some people say, "go back to work!" and I do think about it every day, but I have mixed emotions.... because even on the hardest days there are a lot of really great things about staying home with Emily.  I get to see every new thing she does and I am always here for her when she needs something.

And then there is the thought that this little boy is going to be joining us in a matter of 5 months and that's a whole new set of concerns that I can't even go into right now.

Now you must know, not everything is boo-hoo around here.  Steve is, of course, very helpful. He takes Emily off my hands as soon as he gets home from work. He plays with her, feeds her dinner, gives her a bath and puts her to bed.  And we get time to ourselves just about every weekend or anytime we need it thanks to Steve's parents.  I am thankful for both of these things because I know not every stay at home mom or single mom gets this kind of help. 

But it's the day-to-day, during the week time that I'm having trouble with. 

Maybe I'm just not cut out for being a stay at home mom?  Maybe I'm just a hormonal pregnant girl?

Either way, I'll figure it out and I'll be ok.

Sorry guys, I just can't bring myself to blog lately- or comment as much as I normally do.

I have plenty going on and plenty to say but I just don't have the energy or the enthusiasm to put anything out there.

I'm having a hard time lately and when I start to write it's just depressing and sad (just like this post).

I'll be ok, I just have to give myself some time.

And no worries, everything is fine with Steve, Emily and the baby.

My first guest post!

I'm guest posting over at Shannon's blog, Sitting in a Tree, today while she's soaking up the sun on vacation!

Head on over and check it out- 2 under 2...

Thanks for inviting me Shannon!

Happy Birthday to Chloe!

Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy 1st birthday dear Chloe,
Happy birthday to you!!

Dear Chloe,
I've been reading your mommy's blog for a long time.  I was so excited when you came into the world and I have loved reading all about your fun personality and seeing your funny pictures and videos!  I can't believe you are one year old already, you have grown and changed so much!!  I know you make your mommy and daddy so happy and you are very lucky to have such wonderful parents, sweet girl.

I hope you (and your mom & dad) enjoy your first birthday!!

And Steph,
I know this day is so huge for you and JJ, enjoy every minute of it because you deserve to!  You are a wonderful mother and you worked so hard to get where you are.  And thank you for being such a supportive friend to me, I appreciate it!
Lots of love from our house to yours,
Bridget, Steve & Emily

16 weeks: round 2

I haven't blogged much about my second pregnancy, mainly because there isn't much to report.  Everything is going smoothly except for the scare last week.  Most days the only pregnancy symptom I have is being tired and that is more likely from running around after Emily.  I am starting to have some round ligament pain but it's pretty minor right now.

Here I was at 16 weeks with Emily

Here I am today

I had Steve take this picture because I actually showered and had clothes without baby food on them today.  I'll try to do that more often so I can keep up with the belly pictures, but I'm not promising anything...

And here is our teeny tiny baby boy

We are already in love.

Big day...

We had our first pregnancy scare last night.

Yesterday I noticed some tight, crampy pains throughout the day.  I figured it was just because I was chasing after Emily and lifting her 23 pound baby butt more than usual.  But at 5:30 last night I noticed I was bleeding. 

It wasn't a lot of blood and it was brown, so I knew it was old blood and I tried not to panic.  Like any infertile would, I left a message with my Dr's answering service and went to get the doppler.  I found the heartbeat and felt better but I was still scared. The Dr told me not to worry and that she would get me in for an ultrasound.

I had the ultrasound today and the baby is fine, thank God.  But, I do have a low lying placenta which caused the bleeding.  The Dr said it's nothing to worry about right now and they will check it again in a couple of weeks. 

And while they were checking everything out today we got some great news...

mid-week randomness

*  Emily had her 9 month appointment today and I loved it because....no shots.

She's 23 pounds, 31 inches and healthy as can be!

The only strange thing that we learned today is she has what the Dr called a double tooth.  The first tooth she got was, I thought, just one of her bottom front teeth.  She now has what looks like 3 bottom teeth but one is definitely bigger than the other two.  Apparently that bigger tooth is actually two teeth fused together, what the...?  I guess it's kind of rare but it happens and there is nothing to panic about.  So her tooth count is up to 6- holy hell!  4 on the bottom and her 2 top teeth are coming in right now.

When did my baby get so big?

*  I have to share this post from Motley Mama- it's awesome, go read it.

*  My favorite pics from IG this week- (if you have IG, let me know so I can follow you!)

hiding is her favorite

talking to her little brother or sister

Happy Wednesday!