I lost my mom the week after Mother's Day in 2007. Mother's Day was the last time my siblings and my parents were all together, we celebrated in her hospital room, I got her chocolates shaped like little mice. It was a good day. Since that year, Mother's Day has been painful for me, a day of remembering and wishing my mom was still here.
This year the pain was a little less. This year I focused on Emily and being a mom myself for the first time. My first Mother's Day began with the sound of Emily 'talking' on the baby monitor. I got up quickly and quietly so Steve could sleep and I could have a moment alone with Emily. I went in her room and she kicked her feet and gave me the biggest smile, like she knew it was a special day for me. I picked her up and squeezed her, she leaned her head back and put her little hand on my face, and I cried. It was the best moment and I will never forget it.
Steve woke up shortly after and handed me three cards. One from him, one from Emily, and one from "Honey Badger". Oh my husband, he never disappoints. They got me a gift certificate for a massage, facial, and pedicure. And he said to me, "You always take care of us and now we want you to take care of yourself". And I cried again. It was surreal to be sitting on the floor with two people that I love more than anything in the world opening Mother's Day cards. Then we had brunch with Steve's parents and spent the day outside planting flowers for my mom.
It was a wonderful day. I am blessed and grateful.