I'm anxious for her to get here but I'm also scared of a lot of things. The first being that I will make it to 40 weeks without any problems. I think I wake up at least two or three times a night and wait to feel her move. I'm scared of labor and all the things that can possibly come up during labor. I'm scared I won't know what to do once we have her home with us. Will I know what she needs? Will I be able to breast feed? And the dialogue in my head goes on and on.
We are trying to learn as much as we can before she gets here, but I know there is nothing that can prepare you for a tiny person who depends solely on you to survive. Our first baby class this weekend opened my eyes wide to this fact. It was called baby basics and was mainly about what you need to know after birth. How often they need to eat, how to give baths, how to swaddle, change a diaper, etc, etc. The teacher had a lot of her own stories about her colicky little boy and getting mastitis from breast feeding and I was thinking to myself, do I know enough about all of this?? It seems like I could screw this up pretty easily...
After class Steve and I thought we should head to the store to grab a few things for the baby that we didn't get at our showers. I think every trip to BRU brings on panic. And my mind starts working over time again, so many options....do I really need all of this?...what is the difference between this brand and that brand?....how many of each thing do I need? Thank God for Steve in these situations is all I can say.
Next weekend starts the birthing class series....I'm ready to be