Monday, August 26, 2013

a blog post every 3 months is probably not acceptable...

I was told this weekend I need to start blogging again (Kelly).  I have been missing it so much, but finding the time to sit down and write has become increasingly hard.

So, an update post/picture dump it is...if anyone is still reading?

Post partum depression:  I've been doing much better.  I'm on 3 medications, 1 during the day and 2 at night (that knock me out) so Steve has been getting up with G at night since this all happened.  I have a lot of guilt about the anxiety and depression and about Steve and his parents having to do so much for me. If I'm honest, it makes me feel like a not so great mom.  But I'm working on not feeling guilty and just letting others help.  I'm getting stronger and I feel pretty great most days.  I still have moments of anxiety, mostly at night when I'm trying to get to sleep but I have come such a long way from where I was 4 months ago.  I am grateful that I have this wonderful family that is so willing to help with everything.

Work:  I started working a couple of days a week at the family business.  It's been good for me to get out of the house and start learning something new.  I miss the kids like crazy, but I know this is a good change for all of us. 

Emily:  Oh this girl.  She's 22 months old now and as feisty as ever.  I wonder if there will ever be a day that I don't use the word feisty to describe her?  She's talking up a storm, copying everything we say and do, she loves school, and still has a love/notinlove relationship with Gavin.  She eats and sleeps great and throws 5,000 tantrums a day.  Her favorite place to be is outside, she's terrified of band aids and wants nothing to do with the potty. I have to start planning her 2nd birthday and this seems unreal to me.


Gavin:  G buddy is amazing.  He's 7 months old and he's the happiest baby you've ever seen.  He loves Emily so much and watches her like a hawk.  He's been sitting up since he was 5 months old and is now working on getting up on all fours- he will be crawling before I know it.  He would rather eat baby food than drink his bottle and he's growing like a weed.  At his 6 month well visit he was 29 inches long and 21 lbs 11 oz.  Yes, he's a big boy.  He likes his jumper, throwing balls, bath time and swinging.  He's slowly getting used to going for walks but for awhile he hated being in the stroller.  He's not the best sleeper unfortunately.  It varies from day to day but he is still getting up 1 or 2 times during the night and sometimes he thinks the day starts at 5am.  His naps are all over the place.  On days he's at school he only sleeps about 20 minutes but if he's home he will nap for a couple of hours.  But none of that matters because 97% of the time he is happy, smiling and laughing.

Me:  I chopped my hair off and lost most of the baby weight I had put on with E&G.  I wish I could say there was some magic way I did it but I think it was the combination of anxiety and running around after two kids that did it.  I go on 2 long walks with the kids a day and eat normally.  My next goal is to get toned up because even though I'm back to the same weight as I was before kids, my body looks nothing like it did back then.

Steve:  If there was a contest for best husband and dad, he would win- hands down.  He's taken such good care of me through my PPD and he's taken care of the kids at the same time.  He is always there to talk things through when I'm feeling a little crazy and he's my biggest supporter.  Not to mention that he's learning the family business at the same time.  Superman I tell ya.

These guys....I'm so lucky.

I miss all of you and I'm still reading your blogs!!  I try to comment as often as I can but it doesn't always happen because 2 kids under 2 is a crazy thing.


  1. I already commented once on this, but my internet is being stupid. So here it goes again! You are a great mommy and I love reading this update on you and your life. I'm with Kelly, you should blog more, but I don't have much room to talk either. I don't have a whole lot of new things to talk about either, just chasing kiddos! Try not to be so hard on yourself about needed help right now, you have a TON going on right now and it's ok to be overwhelmed. I have mommy guilt over certain things too, and even though it sometimes seems silly, those feelings are SO real. Chances are, your family LOVES helping and all the extra bonding time with your kiddos, such a cool thing to have! You are a great mom, I can tell because your kids are always so happy in pictures! :) Love you and hope to read another post from you soon! :)

  2. Yay, I am so glad you are back (even if it is only 1 post per quarter)!

    PPD is terrible and holy shit it will mess with your head. I literally thought I was losing my mind. There is a part of me that thinks I have PTSD from the PPD. I am glad you are figuring it out and getting better.

    It sounds like Steve is amazing and thank goodness you all moved before you had Gavin, that would have been terrible otherwise.

    Your babies are just tooo cute! I love stories about E, she just cracks me up!

    Thanks for the update!

  3. Yay for a blog post!! You are doing such a great job with those kiddos. They are beautiful, fun, and happy babies (babiesforlife).

    And yes, Steve wins for best husband...Lonnie would even agree!

    I always love seeing pictures of G because he is always baby ever. And E will probably be spunky for life...and that is a good thing!!

    I fully expect more posts now that you got the first one out of the way. (just pressure. Ok a little pressure ;) )

    AND...I miss ya!

  4. Your kids are so dang cute! Thanks for the update, I can imagine it's hard to keep up. Now that I'm back to work I find I have more time to blog. :) Sounds like everything is going really well for you guys!

  5. Hi - you are posting more than me so good job!!!

  6. Oh my gosh it's hard to post with toddlers! No time ever! Always a million gazillion things to do and blogging gets put on the back burner. Happy to see you are going to try and blog more (I am too!)

  7. So many awesome pictures!

    It's so good to hear from you, and I hope you are enjoying your time back at work. It's always a struggle, but I'm sure the time away is good for you. And I'm sure the kiddos love it when you get's probably the best part of the days you work!

    Thinking of you often, and I'm so glad I get to see your photos on Instagram. I was actually just thinking of you the other day, and remembering when I first read your blog and Emily was just a baby...look at you all now! AMAZING!

  8. So good to hear from you and to know you're doing well!

  9. And I haven't commented on this one either?!? Sooo behind! I did read it a while ago but never got the chance to comment I guess. Sorry about that! LOVED seeing all of these beautiful photos of you and your family. I am so glad you have such an amazing husband in Steve. He sounds pretty darn great. You deserve it! Ohh that G.. such a happy boy!! :) And Em in that crazy hair one?! Gets me everytime! :)


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