Thursday, April 7, 2011

12 weeks & missing my mom

This post is going to be a little disjointed ...sorry in advance!

We are 12 weeks today and I am so thankful, happy, amazed...the list could go on and on. 

I woke up to an email from that said:
The most dramatic development this week: Reflexes. Your baby's fingers will soon begin to open and close, his toes will curl, his eye muscles will clench, and his mouth will make sucking movements. In fact, if you prod your abdomen, your baby will squirm in response, although you won't be able to feel it. His intestines, which have grown so fast that they protrude into the umbilical cord, will start to move into his abdominal cavity about now, and his kidneys will begin excreting urine into his bladder. From crown to rump, your baby-to-be is just over two inches long (about the size of a lime) and weighs half an ounce. Is this amazing or what? Some days I can't even believe we made it to this point.

I had a down day yesterday that is continuing into today.  I cried most of the night (the ugly, sobbing, snot everywhere, swollen eyes kind of crying).  There are a few reasons for this, but only one that I want to talk about on this blog.  I miss the support of my mom.  I think about her everyday and I wish she was here for this huge milestone in my life.  The support of a mother is like nothing else in this world- my mom always knew what to say to make me feel better and I feel like I need that now.  I'm sure her pep talk would start with a soothing hug and she would say something like..."Bridgey, you can't let all of this bother you".

I just want to say a huge thank you to Steve and my sister Niki for being there for me last night and today- you guys are the best.

Ok, before I make myself cry again, please tell me one of you watched Pregnant in Heels on Tuesday. I didn't know what to expect but it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be.  Sure, Rosie Pope's clients are beyond helpless (and there were definitely times I was screaming at the TV) but I was shocked when a follistim pen flashed on the TV and learned that Rosie is struggling with infertility.  I was of course sucked in and won over after that- how could I not be?  This poor lady is dealing with some of the worst pregnant women in the U.S. and she's infertile.


  1. ((((((((Big Hugs)))))))) to you. :)

    12 weeks, time sure does go by quickly!

  2. Congrats on 12 weeks. I hope things get better.
    Thinking of you!

  3. Miracle... I love your updates about what is going on with your baby... it's absolutely amazing.

    I'm so, so sorry that you're missing your Mom right now. I can't begin to imagine how hard it is, or how desperately you want her to be there with you in this incredible time. My heart truly breaks for you.

    I haven't watched Pregnant in Heels, but now I'm intrigued. Everyone seems to be talking about it on their blogs today! I don't think I would be able to do that... cater to the high maintenance preggos and be going through all of the appointments and injections behind the scenes. Wow... that's one tough cookie with a big heart.

  4. I'm so sorry you're missing your mom. It sounds like you have an amazing support system around you, so that's good to hear.

    Never heard of that show, but you've got me curious now!

  5. Hi Bridget, I'm so sorry you're missing your mom too, that must be so hard for you.
    Congratulations on 12 weeks and very cool to read about where your baby is at right now-amazing!
    Take care love xo

  6. so excited for you that 12 weeks is here! so sorry you are having a down day. i am sure missing your mom is very hard, but it is wonderful that you are able to keep her memory alive and you will be able to pass on the love she gave to you to the new member of your family sooner than you think!!
    was waiting to hear about pregnant in heels and wasn't sure i could do it, but now that you say there is an infertility "edge" to it I may be able to make it through :)

    hope you are in awe of how far you have come on this journey!! today is truly a day to celebrate!

  7. Congrats on 12 weeks! That is amazing!

  8. Hey you, congrats on making it to the 12 week milestone. I am so thrilled for you. I am so sad, however, that you are missing your Mom. She must have been an amazing woman, because you are one of the most positive and strong women I know. Hugs.

  9. Oh Bridget I am thinking about you, I have no words to make this better but I can tell you that we are all here to give you virtual (((Hugs)).

    Happy 12 weeks! Ashley

  10. 12 weeks! That is a major milestone and I wish it were enough to make you smile... Sadly, being away from your family precisely now must be awful.

  11. I'm sorry to hear that your mom is not with you during this time. I truly understand since I too lost my mother some years ago, at a way to early age for her. Family is important and keep your sister close, it's another great gift to have in life. Hugs.

  12. You made me cry! I will never forget that day either! Just don't forget she is still with you everyday watching over you, a beautiful angel!!! She will get you through this, along with Steve and N!!! I am sad for you and its hard knowing your he/she will never meet grandma....same thing with Landon never meeting Dougs dad :( I love you girl and I am so proud and happy with how you are handling all of this. You are going to be such a wonderful mother!!!!! I can't wait :) XOXO

  13. You are blessed with an amazing support system, I know it is not always going to be the same... but know I am here for you too. Along, with all your "followers", I feel so lucky to have met you. You give me hope along my journey too!!!
    Thank you for your support as well.

    I missed the "Pregnant in heels", but have been trying to catch the re-runs of it. It looks pretty interesting. lol So tell me are you still rocking all of your heels? :)


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