I have some news...

May 20th I got this....

I wasn't expecting it, I was stunned, scared and excited all at the same time.  I know two lines don't come easy. 

In April my cycle was 33 days long so when I got to day 34 in May I said to Steve, "I should probably take a test just in case."  He was making breakfast and said, "yeah, might as well". I think both of us were just assuming it would be negative and my cycles were messed up. So into the bathroom I went, did my business, and before I could even wash my hands I looked down and saw two lines.  I screamed, "Steve, it's positive!".  We stood in the bathroom staring at each other in happy disbelief.

My heart was pounding and the thoughts in my head were smashing into each other... is this really happening? what if it's another ectopic? how far apart in age will they be? is this really happening??

But of course, this positive test didn't mean easy sailing.  Since I'm new here, I called a few obgyn's in the area and found one that would get me in that week.  The Dr. I saw was amazing.  He talked to me about my history, ordered blood work right away and set up an ultrasound for the next week.  At this point we calculated I was about 5 weeks pregnant.  My first beta was 9804, which was good news.  Another Dr. in the group looked at my blood work and chart the next day and decided with my history I should go for an ultrasound that day.  The ultrasound showed a gestational sac but no yolk sac.  I was crushed.  I cried.  All of the feelings of infertility resurfaced and smacked me right in the face.

Thankfully, I got to go home to my sweet baby girl and that took away the sting.  We are beyond lucky to have her and I told myself if another baby wasn't in our future then that was ok with me.  I'm grateful to have one healthy baby when so many women don't.

The next day I had a second beta drawn and it was 17734, also good news. 

They scheduled me for another ultrasound on May 29th. I was so scared.  I sat in the car before my appointment and said, "either way, good or bad, you have Emily".  I took a few deep breaths and walked into the office.  Paperwork, undressing, stirrups and then I saw this...

the most beautiful sight

Our baby, measuring 5w6d with a heart rate of 106. Our estimated due date is January 21, 2013.

It's still early but we are beyond happy and praying for the best.

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